| Title: | SI |
| Date: | 2009-10-28 @ 14:56 |
| Security: | public |
I'm a smart idiot.
I am aware that this sentence doesn't really offer all too much, but it is true.
I've really now realized my potential. To be honest, there should be no excuse as to in any circumstance why any of my grades are below a B+. (Unless you count my two surgeries...that's excused). I keep on saying how I've been doing the best I've ever been this year...and it's continually happening. I just got an Exam back in my Geography class, I received an A. I'm 99.9% sure I have NEVER received an A on an exam, ever. I'm an essay/project writer, since I get really bad anxiety with on the spot things.
I got an A. On an exam. I'm pretty sure the last time I did that was in Grade 12. I studied, did my readings, went to class and got an A. On an exam. This is huge. Seriously.
I'm an idiot because if I started doing what I was doing before hand, I'd probably wouldn't be worrying all too much about professional programs and graduate studies. Yep, not at all. Because it is evident that I am capable of so much, and I just never really worked hard because I knew my half assed efforts would get me a minimum B/B+. I put in effort and it has been rewarded severly.
I am kicking myself in the ass, real hard. I have another exam in 30 minutes I'm off to Alt Exams now to write it. I'm sure I can get an A in that too. This is probably the most frustrating feeling in the world, recognizing (instead of denying) that in fact I am intelligent. That's really hard for me to type, because I don't see myself as an intelligent human being. But I sure has fuck wouldn't be getting As if I wasn't. I mean I'm even getting As in SCIENCE. (Physicaly Geography/Geomorph doesn't count since I love that shit and I understand Physics, but I'm talking about actual science)
Which now I'm off to write my exam about inductive and deductive reasoning...haha